Josie

Thursday...

2005-09-01T21:44:28Z

I'm at the library now..
I was gonna get up early and go to rite aid to talk to the manager, but we didn't go to sleep till like 4:00 something in the morning and there was no way in hell I could get up at 8:00 and go down there.Plus I was taking care of the baby so I didn't sleep much.I'll make sure I go tomorrow.I wanted to go to the wendys to see if they were hiring too.I need a fuckin job bad.And I don't wanna wait till november..I need one now.We're broke as hell.

So tomorrow here's what I gotta do:
-Get up at 8:00 and get ready.
-Go down to the rite aid and talk to the manager.
-Make copies of the shit I need for the baby's insurance and send out the papers.
- and Study at least an hour for my GED.

I gotta go do laundry tonight..and I don't know what else I'm gonna do.
I started birth control pills today.It didn't make me sick or anything so hopefully it doesn't.The only shit is that these ones don't work as good as the regular pills.(I'm on the one you can use when your breastfeeding)But it's better than nothing..Cuzz I know I'll end up getting pregnant again real quick if I'm not on sometihing...cuzz we both hate fuckin condoms..

But anyways..I guess I'm gonna go..The baby's crying...

green_glo_stix @ 2005-08-26T14:21:00

2005-08-27T06:39:08Z

errr...I have a headache...
We're going back home tomorrow.It's saturday too....I wanna drink. ;-)
I'm happy, I miss being home with everybody.I had fun though...I wouldn't mind moving over here.The shit is..it's so expensive to live in NY.I wanted to try and find a rave up here.This girl at the CD store told me there was an all age one up here..I forget the date.It was on a sunday though...The only thing is I don't have anyone to watch the baby for a whole night.So, I don't know.She's getting big so fast.I can't believe it's already been two months.And she's changed so much already.Time goes so fast....

I can't wait till I'm 18....

*yawn* I'm so tired..I guess I'm gonna go.I don't know when I'll be on again.Since we don't have a computer at home and I'm always so busy with the baby..I never really get time to go to the library.But I'll be back on sometime soon I.....

green_glo_stix @ 2005-08-25T23:43:00

2005-08-25T04:33:28Z

I made another new journal.I must have 15 of em....all with different emails.But I hardly ever go online...and I always forget the passwords...lol.So, now I got another new one.Hopefully I'll keep this one for a while.

I'm in NY now.I think we're leaving on sunday.We have to be back by the 30th because the kids start school then and I have to watch Ian...I miss everybody at home.I've been havin fun though...We went to this little sex store on 3rd ave. and I got a vibrator. ;-) I wanted to get some other shit but I didn't have enough money.I'm broke as hell..but I'm gonna start working as soon as I turn 18 (in nov.) and Luis is gonna stay home with the baby.I don't wanna leave her...but I have to.I gotta start studying so I can get my GED as soon as I turn 18 too.I've been drinking and smoking all the time since I had the baby, that's what's been holding me back from doing something with my life.So, I really gotta stop when we got back.Just on the weekends.It's funny cuzz I always hated school...but this year I was really wishing that I could go back.I miss being in school.
I never thought I'd be where I am now.
Time goes so fast.....
I don't want it to sound like I'm not happy because I am.Having Bella was the best thing that's happened in my life.And I'm happy with how shit is between me and Luis.I'm just not happy with myself all the time...I have a lot to change and a lot I need to start doing.I don't wanna be like this forever, Always focused on partying and always broke because of it.

When I go back home some things are gonna have to change....